The tears continued to slide down her cheeks when she sniffled and looked up at me. She said “tell me a story”. My breath caught in my throat as she uttered those words. I’d always wished to tell her how my heart beat faster when she walked past me and that she was all I could ever think of. I was silent for a moment then said, “This one time, a cat attacked my.leg, so I kicked it down the street.” She gave the softest, most pure and beautiful laugh I’ve ever heard before settling back against me. A sigh escaped my lips, knowing I’d ruined the only chance I’d had to tell her. Tomorrow she’d be back to that asshole who’d played her too many times..
I hate waking up and needing to cry
She’s the only one keeping me sane, I swear..
48, 32, 65, 90, 23, 103-115
23 - My favorite website: Tumblr or Pinterest
32 - My favorite athlete: Megan Rapinoe, Abby Wambach, Hope Solo, or Alex Morgan. I can’t choose just one. c:
48 - Have you ever been in love? Yes, I have been in love twice before. And am head over heels in love with my girlfriend. The types of in love are different per person. But that story is for another day.
65 - Last time I cried: Saturday night, I believe. I was having flash backs and nightmares. But I haven’t really been crying since I started dating Monet. c:
90 - Last Time I texted: I texted my mom 2 hours ago. Other than that, I texted Mikey this morning. I don’t text much.
103 - Last Time I Hugged Someone: Last night. I hugged my bestfriend.
104 - What I Think About The Future: I’m not one to really think of the future, but I hope I have one and it involves my girl.
105 - What I Think About My Family: Can’t live with ‘em, can’t live without ‘em.
106 - What I Think About Sports: I love them. My life. c:
107 - What I Think About College: I hope I can afford it. It’s expensive nowadays.
108 - What I Think About Designer Clothes: I love them, but I hate the price. I’d rather spend less money on clothes and spend the money I saved on more fun things.
109 - What I Think About Gas Prices: Ridiculous. No one is going to be able to afford to drive a car anymore.
110 - What I Think About My Neighbors: They’re just people. I don’t care for more of them, but my one neighboring family are family to me.
111 - What I Think About Work: I have to get a job soon; I need money.
112 - What I Think About Facebook: Overrated and overused. I play games on it and use it to talk to my baby. That’s it.
113 - What I Think About eBay: I think it’s a great way to get used products, but it’s also overrated and creepy.
I wish I was born pretty….
So much for having a supportive parent. /:
- Mom: Are you interested in girls?
- Me: Yeah...?
- Mom: I mean like -
- Me: Yeah.
- Mom: You're a lesbian...?
- Me: Yeah.
- Mom: Well, you're interested in boys, too, right?
- Me: Not really.
- Mom: Really?
- Me: *awkwardly nods*
- Then she continues asking me questions about if my dad and best friend Alyxis know. lol.
- Apparently, my brother told my mom I'm a lesbian. He obviously went creeping through my Facebook. Asshole. -.-
She is my bestfriend, yes, I’m sure most of you know that. But what you don’t know is that she is so much more than that to me. For the last month, this girl has completely turned my life upside down. She has been the only consistent person in my life up to this point, and it’s only been a month. Yes, I’ve known her for years, but we never talked until recently. And she’s become a huuuuuuuge part of my life. She is the most beautiful girl in the world and she makes me smile more than anyone else ever could. She gives me butterflies and makes me laugh. She tells me I’m cute when I spaz about stupid stuff. She loves me exactly how I am, flaws and all. And that is more than I could ever ask of anyone. We fight…a lot, but somehow we always manage to get through it. Because when two people care about each other like we do, that’s what happens. She means the entire universe to me. And I hope she reads this because I want her to know how much I love her. She’s captured my heart. It’s hers. For as long as she’ll keep it. She has me wrapped around her finger. I could go on about her forever, but the intention of this is not to make you fall in love with her, because you will if I tell you how wonderful she is. But I just want you all to know that this girl means more to me than anyone else in the universe. And even though I don’t picture myself married or with anyone in the future, I know I can’t picture life without her. She’s what matters to me. And I’m going to treat her like a fucking princess. Whether she’s mine or not, she deserves the world. And that’s exactly what she’s going to get.
I love you. And I know we go through so much bullshit and this last month has been tough for us both, but I just want to thank you for not giving up on me. I am crazy about you and never forget how much I love you. Forever. I promise. <3